Looking for Rachel Day 2

Monday September 3 2018 Labor Day

“Bring an old pair of sneakers for wading.”  Rachel Carson to Dorothy Freeman, September 3 1953

 Another day when we don’t leave the house until noon.  Sixty-five years ago, September 3, 1953, Rachel wrote to Dorothy advising her to bring old sneakers for exploring the low tide at the bottom of this house.  We won’t go wading today, but we will do a bit of exploring: Cozy Harbor, Newagen Inn, and Hendricks Head Beach.

We make a left onto Salt Pond Road, then, a left onto Dogfish Head Road looking for what Rachel hoped to preserve, what she and Dorothy called their “lost woods.“  After a few turns, we happened upon the Freeman cottage that Dorothy visited every summer for most of her life.  We were unable to see a way down to the shore where she and Rachel had spent many happy hours.  How cheered I am by this discovery, this tie to Rachel.

Rachel writing to Dorothy and Stan, October 7, 1956

“The day of high wind I explored the shore and adjacent woods from Daniel’s place north for a short distance.  If only that could be kept always just as it is. ….How many acres would you guess are in the land from Daniel’s road north to where the Head cottages begin, and between the Dogfish Head Road and the Bay?  Just for fun tell me what you think, and let’s pretend we could somehow create a sanctuary there…. Where people like us could go… and walk about , and get what they need.”

Next, we ventured to Cozy Harbor that sits on one of the inlets of the Sheepscot River south of Rachel’s house.   Looking out to the water, on the right is the Yacht Club and on the left is Oliver’s, a restaurant.

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With my own old sneakers, I wander down to the dock to see what might be living amongst the rocks.  Her biography and letters to Dorothy captures her delight in all creatures and plants that inhabit salt water.   Like her, I’m intrigued by what is in front of me: she still influences her readers.  Unlike her, I haven’t a clue what I’m looking at.

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What did she see when she visited this spot when Oliver’s was the E.W. Pratts General Store?  She wrote to Dorothy on another Labor Day, September 2 1958 about a visit to nearby Pratt Island.

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“…I walked through the woods to the place you and I sat that last day.”  She goes on to share the birds she has sighted- semipalmated plovers and turnstones.

Next we drove to the Newagen Inn located at the southern tip of Southport and described as one of her favorite places.  The inn seems so modern: I can’t imagine her visiting.  On the terrace, we had a late lunch looking out towards the Atlantic.

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After our meal we asked the receptionist if she knew where Rachel Carson and Dorothy Freeman would spend time.  She directed us to a narrow path leading through a patch of woods to the river.  There on a rock were two occupied adirondeck chairs.

From a letter to Dorothy, September 10 1963 on their morning at the Newagen Inn,

“For me it was one of the loveliest of summer’s hours, and all the details will remain in my memory: that blue September sky, the sounds of wind in the spruces and surf on the rocks, the gulls busy with their foraging, alighting with deliberate grace, the distant view of Griffiths Head and Todd Point, today so clearly etched…. But most of all I shall remember the Monarchs, that unhurried westward drift of one small winged form after another, each drawn by some invisible force.”

We made our way home saddened by the thought that this had been the last time Carson and Dorothy were together, the last time Carson visited the Newagen Inn.  She died seven months later.

We took the long way around to the house which meant passing Hendricks Head Beach.   There were children exploring the waters, nets in hand, catching crabs.  But loss seems to have followed us: a dead baby seal had washed up on shore.   The beauty of the site, the children’s interest in the creatures of the sea, and the loss of one of it’s own made for conflicting emotions.  Would Rachel understand it is all part of the wonder of sea life or would she start to wonder what had gone wrong?

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Looking for Rachel Day 1

Sunday  September 2 2018

“Going down into the low tide world,”

Always Rachel, The Letters of Rachel Carson and Dorothy Freeman

I am in her house, but not in her world.  I can see the body of water, the Sheepscot River that eventually reaches the sea, but I can not touch it.  This morning, my first morning, I walked along the path that leads to the shore but could go no further than the long ledge of rocks that line the coast, slippery and dangerous.

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When Carson first moved to Southport, Maine, she had a note from a neighbor, Dorothy Freeman, welcoming her.  She invited Dorothy and her husband to a Sunday exploration of the very coastline that challenges me.

After a friendship developed between the two women, Carson wrote to Dorothy that she wanted to preserve the forest off Dogfish Head Road which extends north to the tip of a peninsula of the same name.  It’s the site of an early settlement as well as the port where steam boats carried summer guests to Southport.  Dorothy was one of those early visitors, traveling by steamer from Boston to Southport when she was just an infant.

The act of preserving was imperative to Carson.  But as Linda Lear (a Carson biographer) explains, ”She also wanted to preserve the paths these two friends had lovingly tread.”  Carson called them the “Lost Woods.”  I walked along the path that seems to lead to those woodlands, but it went nowhere; instead, I saw only houses.  So the woods are lost.  I’m saddened.   A contradiction as I’m sharing her very house with my two loving friends, Karen and Iris.

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 The Lost Woods

Karen and I rose early.  She is reading the Sea Around Us, Carson’s poetic and scientific portrait of the sea, and I’m reading Always Rachel, a present from Karen. I began to peruse the book, looking for links to my stay and read aloud those first few entries hoping to inspire our outings.  Karen also explored the grounds and, like me, reached only the top of the rocky shelf.  But she feels confident we can make our way if we do it together, much like Rachel and Dorothy did on that first meeting.

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Stanly Freeman, Dorothy Freeman, Rachel Carson

We have a hard time getting out of the house, so much to share, to review.  I worry that I won’t be looking for Rachel.

Today, we visited monarchs at the Costal Maine Botantical Gardens in Boothbay.  A guide in the Butterfly House told us that the staff knows when the Monarchs will migrate: then, they lift the screened roof and the monarchs make their journey to Mexico. This guide was particularly fond of the Mourning Cloak butterfly: it doesn’t migrate but toughs out the winter in Maine, making its home in an oak tree, then, in the Spring, climbs down the trunk to drink it’s sap.

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Mourning Cloak

Tomorrow is Labor Day and we will look for Rachel at the Newagen Inn which she visited for the last time on another Labor Day watching Monarchs fill the air.  My worries were unfounded- a serendipitous link to Rachel.

 

Day 35 and 36 Paris

Saturday May 5 and Sunday May 6

On this May day, the last day, a full day, a full meal.  I continued my search for the 1968 revolution and found May 68:Pano Ne Passera Pas, a film showing at Le Saint André des Arts Cinema.  The day would include the film, a walk to the store Merci for present buying and finally, packing.  But much much more filled my last twelve hours afoot in Paris.

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The film was scheduled for noon.  The walk to the cinema located on Rue Saint André des Arts took less time than I allotted, so I walked around the block a few times and made a few discoveries.  On one of my rounds, I passed a restaurant, Allard, a familiar name. Almost a decade ago, I had wanted to have a meal there but it never came to pass.  Carpe Diem.  I must have my last meal at Allard.  Inside the restaurant, cooks scrambled.  I approached the receptionist.  Alas, the only available seating was at 9.  Too late for me.

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Disappointed, I walked around the block again and found a tree lined square, a good place to while away a half hour.  I sat down at a café and ordered tea.  After some eavesdropping and people gawking, I decided to call Allard and give it one more try.  Success.  A table at 7 was available.

At the cinema, there was some confusion about which door to enter.  It was guarded enthusiastically by a rather fierce woman. “Non, non, interdit” she called loudly and with disdain from the ticket window.   Several people, old enough to have participated in May 68, stood talking to each other oblivious to the drama.  Finally, we were allowed to go through the “right door.”

The film reminded me of the American film, Medium Cool.  Both involved a journalist trying to cover an event in 1968.  In the French film, it is the revolution unfolding in the streets: in Medium Cool, it was the 1968 Democratic Convention, a revolution of sorts with similar violence between students, activists and the authorities. Both journalist were seeking to tell the truth while being hindered by their workplace.  Both films use fiction and documentary throughout the narrative.  I felt right at home.

The same people I had observed outside were the filmmakers who spoke after the film.  They agreed it could not be made today as such a revolution couldn’t take place.  We are too carefully monitored.  C’est dommage.

I walked to Merci by crossing Pont Saint Michel to Boulevard de Palais. At the intersection with Rue de Lutèce a poster announced an exhibit devoted to May 1968 at the Préfecture de Police.  C’est bizarre.  I went in and was invited to see “Derrière Les Boucliers” or Behind the Shields, that is, a look at the events of May 1968 from the perspective of the police.  The exhibit through sound and images immersed me, put me on the streets with a barrage of noise, cobblestones being thrown, tear gas exploding, screams of protest and pain from students attacked by police.

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Stunned, I walked to Merci, the upscale hip store where I bought presents for friends and family.  As I left the store at the Boulevard Beaumarchais exit, I saw protesters against French President Macran had filled the streets.  I joined them and like the citoyens and citoyennes of 68, I was faced with the “shields.”  However, no violence.

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I rushed home, changed, and got to Allard on time. The intimate restaurant seemed to be divided into two sections.  I was placed with the tourists.  Americans to my left and right and down a table or two a woman whose companion was a large teddy bear.  She asked the waiter to take a photo of the two of them.

I ordered an expensive first course of asparagus with hollandaise, the most exquisitely cooked asparagus I’ve every eaten and the saltiest hollandaise.  The salinity continued throughout the meal.  I had to say something: my meal cost well over 100 Euros.  I asked the waiter if I could speak to him using French so as not to make a scene with the other English speakers.  I explained about the seasoning: he was surprised but offered an explanation.  They use salted butter from Normandy.  When I raised my eyebrows, he agreed to talk with the chef.  Later I discovered that the woman I had seen earlier in the kitchen was the well known chef Fanny Herpin and that Allard was now under the auspices of Alain Ducasse who vowed to save traditional French restaurants.  At one time, Allard had been in the same family for close to 50 years.

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Paris, a city of contradictions: strikes and privilege, liberty, tradition, anarchy.  All in one day

I walked home through cool night air and spent the rest of the night packing.  I had an 8:00 AM taxi for my noon flight.  Luckily, I awoke at 3 A.M. and looked at my phone.  My flight had been cancelled.  After furiously phoning the airline, I was able to rebook for a 9 A.M. flight.  But how to get there.  How to get a cab by 6 A.M.?  Another stroke of luck, par hasard, I found the security guard who was able to get me a taxi.

At the airport, I discovered that due to strikes, all  flights on United from Paris had been cancelled.  I was on the only one that left that day.

I got the last seat on the plane,  facing a bulkhead.  At a loss as to how to handle the devices, that is, the location of the television and the tray for meals,  I sighed loudly.  The passenger next to me gallantly helped me arrange myself.  He was lanky, laconic, and spoke with a west Texas drawl.

He’d spent a week in Paris with his wife who was seated on his other side.  When asked how he liked the city, he replied, “Well the wife likes museums and I just go along to keep her happy.”  Welcome home to a part of America, a kindly man with graceful manners, and a willingness to accommodate.  Another country filled with contradicitons.

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Southwest by Southwest Musical Festival      Austin, Texas

 

Day 34 Paris

Friday, May 4

I leave in two days, so I decided on a last visit to market Marché d’Aligre, in search of the raclette cheesemonger: he had many versions including one infused with spring garlic from a Swiss meadow.  Afterwards, I planned to make my way to the Ménagerie du Jardin des Plantes in search of the panther of Rilke fame and mentioned by my friend the poet shortly before he left.

Although this was my third visit to the market, it still overwhelmed.  I perused the “antiques,” more like a large garage sale, in search of faux ivory cutlery.  Found them but too expensive. A decision I would later regret.

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Alas, the cheesemonger was closed.  However, the aroma of an Algerian bakery, Amira, seduced me.  I purchased a mihajeb aux légumes, a semolina bread filled with roasted vegetables, greasy and delicious.

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Returning to the left bank, I crossed the Pont d’Austerlitz, entered the Jardin des Plantes, and meandered towards the Ménagerie.  Unable to tolerate animals in cages no matter how attractive the cage, I hadn’t been to a zoo in decades.

At the entrance, school groups and families entered with me.  I watched them oohing and aahing at the various animals and wondered what they were learning.  That viewing animals was for their entertainment?  That humans have the right to inprison them for our benefit?  Nothing about animal life, nothing about respecting them.

On my way to La Fauverie or the cat house, I passed antelopes whose only outside environment resembled a large kitty litter box, hard dirt with no greenery.  Does that make it easier to clean?

The flamingos looked content, perhaps because they are pretty like their leafy fenced enclosure.

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As I neared La Fauverie , I passed vultures.  I felt like one as I devoured images of exotic animals, but unlike them, I had the freedom to move about.

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The leopards have an old fashioned indoor cage, but they can escape to the “outside” a large glassed in area where they pace or climb rocks to a door that goes back inside. However, it seemed to be locked. They were on display for our amazement.

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                                          The Panther   Rainer Maria Rilke

                                         His vision, from the constantly passing bars,

                                         has grown so weary that it cannot hold

                                         anything else.  It seems to him there are

                                         a thousand bars; and behind the bars, no world.

On my way home I passed a poster announcing a Chris Marker exposition, Les 7 Vies D’un Cinéaste, distracting me briefly from the panther.  Then his film, La Jetée, where there is no escape, came to mind.

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Perhaps my view of the Pantheon as I reached the top of Rue Soufflot might provide a refuge.

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Day 33 Paris

May 3 Thursday

My last day at the Alliance. On my way, I prepared what I would say about today’s significance: May 3,1918, the 50th anniversary of the 1968 French Revolution.

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The class began with the teacher asking how we spent our holiday.  I began by connecting my Paris Walk about the 1789 revolution to the May 3, 1968 revolution.  He looked confused.  I repeated, “C’est le cinquantieme anniversaire de la revolution du 3 mai 1968.”  “Ah, oui, oui” he replied and quickly moved on to another student.  Is he is too young for it to have any significance?  I dismissed that notion since the government almost collapsed under the protests.  Perhaps the policy of the Alliance is to not engage in political discussions.

After class, a student from Ireland and I discussed staying at the Irish College when our teacher joined us as we lamented the high cost of living in Paris.  He was very open about his salary, which if I heard right, is around 20,000 euros a year, amazingly low.  He has to share an apartment in the 11th arrondissement in order to make ends meet.  I asked him about improving my French and self deprecatingly referred to my lack of progress.  He assured me I speak well but lack confidence and kissed me on both cheeks in a friendly good-bye which warmed me considerably.

My task after class was to buy gifts for my two nieces, 7 and 10. There are a cluster of children’s stores off Blvd Raspail on Rue Vavin and Rue Brea. I found the perfect shop, just candy.  Candy in charming metal boxes.  Les petits magasins of Paris delight me, for just socks, for just parapluies, for just nostalgically boxed candy.

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On my way home, I passed Emile and Jules where Rue Vavin meets Rue d’Assas in front of Le Jardin du Luxembourg.  I have frequently pasted my face against their window, looking longingly at the breads, brioches, croissants, and sandwiches.  Today, I finally entered and choose a small whole grain baguette filled with salad nicoise.

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I dined next to Baudelaire in the le jardin.   The sandwich was delicious, but unwieldy.  I managed to drop a significant amount on my lap.  After a half hour,  I gave up, chucked the remains, and headed back home.

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As I passed the lawn at Place Andre Honnorat, students were strewn across it’s expanse.  Usually, in Paris parks, it is “Pelouse Interdite.” No sitting on the grass.  Is this their way of remembering May 3, 1968?  Not much at stake, not like their predecessors.  When I looked more closely, the sign read “Pelouse Authorisee.” C’est vrai?

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This was the night for L’Estrapade, the restaurant at the end of my street.  When I opened the door, I hadn’t much hope: it’s 12 or so tables were full.  However, the wait person assured me she would find me a place.  She managed to seat me and another couple check to jowl.  In order to use la toilette, I had to ask a diner to get up, had difficulty squeezing by, and then had to go through the same embarrassment on my way back to my table.

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I went all out. First, l’entrée, la terrine de foie de volaille, next, le plat, le magret de canard aux clémentines, and finally, le dessert, la tarte tatin, the meal accompanied by un pichet de vin.  Most satisfying.  And later, out my bedroom window, the Pantheon.

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